School has been busy. I have relaxed a lot more than last year. I have so much more responsibilities than last year, but I am focused and am trying not to become overwhelmed. I really have relied on God so much. If there is a situation that arises that I have no control over, 9 times out of 10, I have just released it. I am never going to be able to control everything that comes my way. So instead of getting upset and worried, I just give it to God and relax.
I have had a lot more conversations with God lately. I enjoy just talking out loud and speaking my thoughts while I'm cleaning or driving, or just whenever I am alone. I feel at peace when I have that time with Him.
I am starting seminary FINALLY in January. I am really excited about it. I have felt that my life has been on hold up until now. I feel that I can not be complete in what God has for me until I start my seminary education. I have had no formal bible education, and I am so excited about learning and discovering new things. Recently I have felt "unworthy" enough, or that I need to work on more things before I can go. I know that it is just a lie and I know that no one is completely "ready" or whatever that means. No one will ever be perfect, and to wait until you are, would be a waste of a life. Because you will spend your life time waiting until you are "perfect". It is funny how when you are doing what the Lord has called you to do, doubts will constantly combat you.
I know that things are going to try to steal my focus when I start seminary, and I am praying now that I will be strong enough to stay focused and really dedicate these next two years to my studies. This is so important to me, and I am just so happy and at peace with my decision to go. Whenever I think about starting school, I almost get giddy. I have been waiting so long for this. I had applied to seminary schools before and they had never work and now I know the reason why. This is the perfect place that I would have never guess a year ago that I would have been accepted to. God's timing is perfect, and amazing! I am completely blessed in so many areas!
Now, if I can just rely on God's timing in everything in my life. I am slowly getting there! And as long as I am growing, I am doing good! From glory, to glory I am growing!
